Weary
Five years on Monday and seven years on Thursday.
That’s how long it’s been since I lost my daddy and Papaw. And even with those years passed, I still struggle and fight with my emotions. So, on this day dedicated to love I can’t help but feel alone, saddened, and in pain. Dealing with loss has never been easy, but I’m really having a difficult time this year.
Please keep me in your prayers. I need every bit of help I can get right now.
Dear refuge of my weary soul,
On Thee, when sorrows rise
On Thee, when waves of trouble roll,
My fainting hope relies
To Thee I tell each rising grief,
For Thou alone canst heal
Thy Word can bring a sweet relief,
For every pain I feel
But oh! When gloomy doubts prevail,
I fear to call Thee mine
The springs of comfort seem to fail,
And all my hopes decline
Yet gracious God, where shall I flee?
Thou art my only trust
And still my soul would cleave to Thee
Though prostrate in the dust
Hast Thou not bid me seek Thy face,
And shall I seek in vain?
And can the ear of sovereign grace,
Be deaf when I complain?
No still the ear of sovereign grace,
Attends the mourner’s prayer
Oh may I ever find access,
To breathe my sorrows there
Thy mercy seat is open still,
Here let my soul retreat
With humble hope attend Thy will,
And wait beneath Thy feet,
Thy mercy seat is open still,
Here let my soul retreat
With humble hope attend Thy will,
And wait beneath Thy feet.
-Anne Steele

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.
This has always brought me comfort, love.
It doesn’t seem that long ago, honestly. I think it’s perfectly understandable that you’re still dealing with it.
This is Jill, btw — made a new wordpress blog but haven’t used it yet!
You are in my prayers and always will be.